Last night I watched this documentary on PBS, which demonstrated how close Nixon and Kissinger together came to dropping a nuclear bomb on Vietnam, and how important the anti-war movement was in preventing that from happening. For me–and for everyone else of my generation–the images of these times were the backdrop of our youths, we know all those politicians’ faces; and it was almost too painful to see all the marchers and demonstators visages, because they were US. I cannot bear seeing any of the horrific footage of the Vietnam War, because it brings back so many memories of boys that I knew who never came home, and of those who did come home and were so damaged. EVERY ONE of them that I knew was shattered in some way upon their return, having witnessed atrocities that no 19-year-old should have to experience.
In such a mood of rumination, I realized that the importance of such a documentary is not for we oldies to reminisce or rue our misguided youth. The service it provides is in presenting history to younger generations, who really know nothing about those troubled times, and may not even know that there was a tragic situation that dominated the coming of age for my generation. And if any younger folk do have some vague understanding of what those times were like, their understanding has been packaged to erase the vagaries of memory and to obscure the realities of who was on what side of the confrontations between The Establishment and the anti-War movements. My own biography is a good example of how easy it is to assume that the attitudes and outlooks we have now are the attitudes and outlooks we have always had. After watching this program, I had to confess to my age mates that contrary to my status now as a left-leaning progressive, as a college student I was not politically involved at all. As an undergraduate, I dated Air Force cadets, and even a sergeant in the Army. When the moratoriums were happening, I was waltzing in Vienna, as I was when the Kent State killings took place. I came home to a different America than I had left in the autumn of 1969. But by the time of Nixon’s second inauguration in 1972, I was working in Portland, Oregon, and was a card-carrying member of the Young Socialists Alliance, selling their newspaper on the Portland streets. I have no idea when or how this transformation had occurred. I think it had to do with having been abroad, living in a different culture, and learning that other human beings had different ideas about how to live a life ethically. And then again, I was only 23, and rebellion was in the air. Unlike many others, I remain radicalized, despite living a bourgeois life with family, home and professional work.
The other, more painful, thoughts that such journeys into the past evoke bring one into the present: how on earth did all that idealism, all that naive faith in progress toward a better future for everyone, devolve into the hateful divisiveness that we are dealing with now? I think I knew that such a view of future developments was optimistic at best after the results of the 1972 election. As I have said many times before, everyone I knew voted for McGovern. His crushing defeat made it clear that we progressive thinkers were always a minority, even in the 70s.The Watergate trials and Nixon’s resignation which were for us such a positive indication that American law and justice would prevail as we advanced into a more liberal world was an unsettling development for those who had to believe that America was the greatest country in the world, despite knowing nothing about any other country. We didn’t pay enough attention to everyone else whose lives did not as easily partake of the American Dream: the disenfranchised, the uneducated, the factory workers who lost their jobs when businesses and industries closed shop. So those so-called “silent majority” folks–as opposed to what Spiro Agnew called “the nattering nabobs of nihilism”, meaning US–continued to seethe as the economy plunged, and the America THEY knew seemed to disintegrate.
Well, enough of these ruminations, you get my drift. I still have a hard time looking at all those scenes of us marching, long-haired and braless, filled with a lot of foolish hope. But the documentary ends with a hopeful message: the moratoriums prevented nuclear holocaust. The last line spoken in the program is “keep up the fight”.